I’ve been AWOL — no blog posts for weeks! Some may wonder if it’s due to my recent surgery but that’s not the case. Recovery from surgery is going great … no physical problems at all! It’s just that I’ve just been in a mental funk … an overwhelming mental funk.
Sometimes I feel the weight of the universe much more intensely than I should. It’s especially difficult since I know, for the most part, I can’t solve the problems that pain me. I worry for our country, for the young, the disabled and the elderly. I worry about my children, my friends, and I worry for Bruce and I. I worry for strangers. There is a common thread here, in case you haven’t noticed — worry.
Intellectually, I know worrying does nothing at all to help but somehow my mind doesn’t really care. It goes on worrying and fretting all day and well into the night. From past experience, the intensity of this burden will eventually lessen, but at it’s own accord and it’s own time. It’s out of my control.
I envy those of you who are able to still your mind (be it through yoga, meditation, or on your reliance on a Higher Power) and find peace. I see firsthand the effects of the budget cuts on the most vulnerable population in our country and I’m unable to find peace. There is nothing peaceful or comforting to me about the state of our country and the direction we are heading — job layoffs, home foreclosures, poor healthcare, veterans losing their benefits, the list goes on and on. It is disheartening.
So you see, I am most definitely in a FUNK! Most of you will probably wish I had stayed quiet until it passed but because my blog is a reflection of my life, I chose to share it … the good, the bad and the ugly! Lucky you, you get it all!