Lost?

I had my first child at age 25, and though I’m too old to remember, I guess we were rightly smitten, because we went on to parent a total of nine children!  Yes, I did say nine and you have every right to be amazed because I feel the same myself.  Truly!  I guess Bruce and I were just kept way too busy to actually COUNT this constantly growing number of children and by the time we did count, we were deeply in debt indebted … to our children, of course.  I loved parenting but in looking back, I think, that’s where I began to “lose” myself.  My life merged so intimately with my children that the evolution was seamless and completely unnoticed.  My transformation into parenthood was all encompassing and I can honestly say, I enjoyed it immensely.  But little did I know that 34 years later, when my kids had all but grown up, that *I* wasn’t to be found.

To be continued …

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About dbdaze

Currently spending much of my time contemplating the remainder of my life ... realizing the importance of dreams that are fulfilled, support of those closest to you, and the value in downsizing and living with less.
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2 Responses to Lost?

  1. katy day says:

    This is a very intriguing idea you have here, good for you to put yourself out there.
    I think we learn the most about ourselves from our relationships, but you need to take risks. I will continue to read your posts as it makes me sad that I don’t really know you or your children, I wish you the best with this adventure! Katy

    • dbdaze says:

      I agree that we do learn a lot about ourselves from our relationships but only if we give (or have) time to contemplate on the interactions. Unfortunately, I was quite preoccupied by my ever-increasing brood of young’ns to give thought to much else. LOL Having time to reflect, is amazing!! I hope this won’t be a sad blog for anyone reading it, because for me it’s an awakening. I have no regrets. I am just extremely curious and anxious to discover my dreams and where they may lead.

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